There were five members of the Executive Committee. They were all men and they were all dressed in business suits. They sat around one end of a conference table, their chairman at the head and two on either side, each turned slightly in his chair so he could face me. I sat at the other end of the table, three vacant chairs between me and the nearest person.
They introduced themselves in quick succession. Their names, their companies, their positions in the volunteer leadership of the organization. They were all company presidents, and some of the companies I had even heard of. None of them were old and none of them were young. They all looked at me with a kind of placid understanding, as if they had already decided who and what I was.
The questioning was led by their chairman, a guy named Steve Anderson. He was the only one among them not wearing a tie, just an open collar shirt under his suit coat. First, he wanted to know more about my background and my current responsibilities. Had I really done the things my resume said I had? Then he wanted to know more about why I was looking for something new. Was there something wrong with the company I worked for or the organization I served? Where did I see myself in five or ten years? And then he wanted to know more about my plans for their organization. What did I know about their goals and objectives? What would be my plan for the first ninety days?
Unlike the experience with Mister Thompson, this felt like something approaching normal. The stakes were high -- I hadn’t needed Pamela’s warning to understand that -- but at least I felt like I was somewhat prepared. The questions were direct but appropriate to the situation. Jenny and I had rehearsed many of them, and most of them I answered without even looking at my notes, trying to remember to make eye contact with as many people as possible around the table. In doing so I received an array of silent feedback. Some eyes were encouraging, seeming to root for my success, while others were skeptical, hoping to knock me off my game so they could kick me while I was down.
There was really one moment where I felt like things might go off the rails.
“Tell me about your time with Mister Thompson.”
“My time with Mister Thompson?” I said. “What do you mean?”
Steve -- and he had twice insisted that I call him Steve so that is what I did -- smiled. “You spent some time with him before coming in here, didn’t you?”
“Yes.”
“Tell me about it.”
I looked around the table. If I had sensed some silent supporters before, on this one they all seemed to have deserted me. One wasn’t even looking at me, his eyes down and looking at a few pieces of paper spread across his leather table pad. Another seemed to be licking his chops, his hands up and one slowly spinning an enormous class ring around the other’s finger.
“Well,” I said slowly. “Mister Thompson spent much of the time telling me more about the history of the organization.”
“Uh huh,” Steve said. “Like what?”
“Ummm,” I stammered. “Well, there was something about a capital campaign, and something else about the launch of your Foundation.”
Steve was nodding his head. “What did you think of him?”
“Of who? Mister Thompson?”
“Yes.”
I saw a pit opening at my feet, a pit with poison-tipped spikes jutting up from below.
“I just met him,” I said.
“How did he strike you?”
I had no idea what this line of questioning was about. It felt like Steve was fishing for something, like he wanted me to commit to one direction or another, but the safest path seemed to be tip-toeing through the middle.
“He cares a lot about this organization,” I said. “He’s dedicated a large part of his life to it.”
“And yet here you are. Trying to push him to the side.”
It wasn’t Steve who said this. It was one of the other committee members, the one with the class ring, a guy named Fred Zeidler.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I said without thinking, not knowing what he was talking about. “I’m not here to push anyone to the side. He’s retiring, isn’t he? I’m just applying for the job. Am I missing something?”
Fred looked like he might argue with me, but Steve quickly jumped in. “No, no,” he said. “You’re not missing anything.” And then he pushed a button on a small keypad in front of him and I heard the door behind me open.
“Yes, Mister Anderson?”
It was Pamela Thornsby. She must have been standing just outside the room, waiting for the signal. I could sense her presence behind me, but I did not turn my attention away.
“Pamela,” Steve said. “We’re done with Alan for now. Can you please ask him to wait in his conference room while we speak with the third candidate?”
“Of course,” Pamela said, moving forward, standing behind my right shoulder, and present in my peripheral vision.
I looked across the table at Steve and met his impassive face. Not knowing what else to do, I slowly gathered my things and stood.
“Well, okay, then,” I said. “It was a pleasure meeting all of you. I am excited by this opportunity, I hope to hear more about it later.”
Steve simply nodded, and I felt Pamela step even closer and grasp my elbow.
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Monday, May 24, 2021
The Zero Dollar Car by John Ellis
John Ellis spoke at one of my association’s annual conferences, and The Zero Dollar Car is the book he was handing out. It’s a quick read, part biography and part manifesto, with the manifesto part the more interesting of the two.
Ellis’s idea -- the thing he calls The Zero Dollar Car -- is that there is coming a day when you will be able to get a car for free, because the data coming off them can be sold to interested parties and it will be more valuable than the car itself. The companies that leverage and profit from that data will pay you enough to entirely offset the cost of the car you just purchased, if you only agree to let them harvest the data that’s generated as your car operates and moves around.
Imagine that you’re buying a $40,000 U.S. car. Say you want to reduce the price of that car by agreeing to sell the information generated by six sensors: traction control, headlights, clock, wipers, rain, and barometer. If you could sell those weather sensors for an agreed-upon lifetime price, let’s say $3,000, that would reduce the price of the car to $37,000.
Cars also contain suspension-monitoring sensors that, while providing information on the health of the vehicle’s ride, could also record every time the vehicle passes over a rough stretch of road in need of repair. This data is potentially of interest to government agencies who maintain roads and highways. Now imagine that you could sell the suspension-monitoring sensors to a government agency for, let’s say, another $2,000 lifetime price. That would reduce the price of the car you’re buying to $35,000.
Almost every modern-day car contains a microphone. Imagine giving permission to Google to monitor what is being said in the vehicle to better help with navigation or searching for that perfect place to eat. If you could sell your voice data to Google for a $5,000 lifetime price, that would reduce the price of the vehicle to $30,000. And what about handing over the information from sensors that detect speed and from car cameras? That might be valuable traffic information that could cut another $2,000 off the purchase price of your car.
In theory, if you sold the data being generated from several more sensors, you could dramatically reduce the price of your $40,000 car. Now imagine what could happen in the future, when there are lots more sensors, and companies like Apple and Google figure out new ways to package the data coming out of those cars -- especially self-driving cars that leave riders plenty of time to read and shop and play on their portables and phones. The value of that data could end up being equal to or more than the purchase price of a car. It could be a data bonanza. Who would be the winner? If it’s you, the driver, you could have a car that effectively costs you zero -- the Zero Dollar Car.
You get the idea. It’s kind of a fun idea to think about. But I think it has a fatal flaw. After all, who says that all the wonderful data belongs to you in the first place? Future cars, it seems to me, are much more likely to be leased, loaned, or given to you under an agreement where the car manufacturer keeps and sells all the data. You won’t even be able to get a car unless you sign on that bottom line. There’s a chance that that future car may still be free to you -- after all, if the data is so valuable, would a car company really want something like a sticker price to stand in the way of all those other profits -- but I can’t see a scenario in which you’re the one selling, and profiting, from that data.
Ellis, I think, sees this, too. In his conclusion, he highlights the issue of data ownership as one of the two big challenges that stand between us and the future envisioned by his Zero Dollar Car.
Society needs to redefine the concept of ownership. This is at the heart of the [Internet of Things]. With so much software in so many places -- even including what we wear -- the question of who owns the data is becoming critical. We all leave a digital trail wherever we go, and so far, every time we click “accept” on one of those long, confusing terms-and-conditions forms that no one reads, we give away our personal data -- a priceless asset not only to marketers but corporations and governments. What do we get in return? “Free” email, text, internet search, and content. And we also give up our data every time we order a product on Amazon or Target, accept a discount from a travel company or airline, purchase a new appliance or home security system, pair our smartphone with our car…
I hate to burst Ellis’s bubble, but from where I sit that ship has already sailed. Society has already redefined the concept of ownership, and it is not in the direction Ellis would prefer. Practically speaking, there no longer is any concept of “personal data,” except perhaps in the medical space. All the data that is generated by all the sensors on our cars, appliances, and smartphones -- none of that data belongs to us, it belongs to the corporations that provide us with “our” cars, appliances, and smartphones.
The days of the Zero Dollar Car are already upon us, except, funny, we’re not getting our cars, appliances, and smartphones for free. There’s no need for that. Not only are we happy to give away all the valuable data we help generate, we’re willing to pay for the honor of doing so.
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This post first appeared on Eric Lanke's blog, an association executive and author. You can follow him on Twitter @ericlanke or contact him at eric.lanke@gmail.com.
Ellis’s idea -- the thing he calls The Zero Dollar Car -- is that there is coming a day when you will be able to get a car for free, because the data coming off them can be sold to interested parties and it will be more valuable than the car itself. The companies that leverage and profit from that data will pay you enough to entirely offset the cost of the car you just purchased, if you only agree to let them harvest the data that’s generated as your car operates and moves around.
Imagine that you’re buying a $40,000 U.S. car. Say you want to reduce the price of that car by agreeing to sell the information generated by six sensors: traction control, headlights, clock, wipers, rain, and barometer. If you could sell those weather sensors for an agreed-upon lifetime price, let’s say $3,000, that would reduce the price of the car to $37,000.
Cars also contain suspension-monitoring sensors that, while providing information on the health of the vehicle’s ride, could also record every time the vehicle passes over a rough stretch of road in need of repair. This data is potentially of interest to government agencies who maintain roads and highways. Now imagine that you could sell the suspension-monitoring sensors to a government agency for, let’s say, another $2,000 lifetime price. That would reduce the price of the car you’re buying to $35,000.
Almost every modern-day car contains a microphone. Imagine giving permission to Google to monitor what is being said in the vehicle to better help with navigation or searching for that perfect place to eat. If you could sell your voice data to Google for a $5,000 lifetime price, that would reduce the price of the vehicle to $30,000. And what about handing over the information from sensors that detect speed and from car cameras? That might be valuable traffic information that could cut another $2,000 off the purchase price of your car.
In theory, if you sold the data being generated from several more sensors, you could dramatically reduce the price of your $40,000 car. Now imagine what could happen in the future, when there are lots more sensors, and companies like Apple and Google figure out new ways to package the data coming out of those cars -- especially self-driving cars that leave riders plenty of time to read and shop and play on their portables and phones. The value of that data could end up being equal to or more than the purchase price of a car. It could be a data bonanza. Who would be the winner? If it’s you, the driver, you could have a car that effectively costs you zero -- the Zero Dollar Car.
You get the idea. It’s kind of a fun idea to think about. But I think it has a fatal flaw. After all, who says that all the wonderful data belongs to you in the first place? Future cars, it seems to me, are much more likely to be leased, loaned, or given to you under an agreement where the car manufacturer keeps and sells all the data. You won’t even be able to get a car unless you sign on that bottom line. There’s a chance that that future car may still be free to you -- after all, if the data is so valuable, would a car company really want something like a sticker price to stand in the way of all those other profits -- but I can’t see a scenario in which you’re the one selling, and profiting, from that data.
Ellis, I think, sees this, too. In his conclusion, he highlights the issue of data ownership as one of the two big challenges that stand between us and the future envisioned by his Zero Dollar Car.
Society needs to redefine the concept of ownership. This is at the heart of the [Internet of Things]. With so much software in so many places -- even including what we wear -- the question of who owns the data is becoming critical. We all leave a digital trail wherever we go, and so far, every time we click “accept” on one of those long, confusing terms-and-conditions forms that no one reads, we give away our personal data -- a priceless asset not only to marketers but corporations and governments. What do we get in return? “Free” email, text, internet search, and content. And we also give up our data every time we order a product on Amazon or Target, accept a discount from a travel company or airline, purchase a new appliance or home security system, pair our smartphone with our car…
I hate to burst Ellis’s bubble, but from where I sit that ship has already sailed. Society has already redefined the concept of ownership, and it is not in the direction Ellis would prefer. Practically speaking, there no longer is any concept of “personal data,” except perhaps in the medical space. All the data that is generated by all the sensors on our cars, appliances, and smartphones -- none of that data belongs to us, it belongs to the corporations that provide us with “our” cars, appliances, and smartphones.
The days of the Zero Dollar Car are already upon us, except, funny, we’re not getting our cars, appliances, and smartphones for free. There’s no need for that. Not only are we happy to give away all the valuable data we help generate, we’re willing to pay for the honor of doing so.
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Monday, May 17, 2021
Dragons - Chapter 62 (DRAFT)
I arrived at the offices of Quest Partners exactly eight minutes before the appointed time and was greeted at the door by a tall and slender woman in a gray business suit and dark hair.
“Hello, Alan?” she said to me. “It’s so nice to meet you,” she continued without waiting for me to confirm my identity, extending her hand for a powerful shake. “I’m Pamela Thornsby.”
Pamela ushered me gracefully into a small conference room just off the lobby. Once inside, she shut the door, motioned for me to take a seat and then sat opposite me. How was your flight yesterday? Did you have dinner in the city last night? Any trouble finding the office? Her polite questions came in quick succession, each in a tone meant to communicate that she really cared, but with barely a chance for me to even grunt in between.
“Now, Alan,” she said, turning deadly serious, “here’s how things are going to go today.”
She then proceeded to tell me that in a few minutes I would be sitting down with the retiring executive of the organization whose top job I had come to interview for.
“Wait,” I tried to interrupt, “you mean I’m going to be interviewed by the person whose job I’m trying to win?”
Yes, yes, Pamela said dismissively, clearly indicating with a wave or her hand that such things happened all the time in Beantown. His name was Thompson, Mister Richard Thompson, and he had been the organization’s executive for something like thirty-five years. He would be speaking to me for no more than twenty or thirty minutes, really just to get a sense of who I was, and then I would be returned to this small conference where I was to wait until Mister Thompson had had a chance to brief the Executive Committee on his discussion with you and the other two candidates.
“Wait,” I interrupted again. “There are two other candidates? Here? Today?”
Yes, yes, but not to worry, not to worry. Pamela was there to ensure that everything went smooth as silk and none of the candidates accidentally encountered each other. One was meeting with Mister Thompson as we spoke and the other would be arriving in about twenty minutes, when they would be sequestered in another conference very much like this one, but not quite as nice as this one. Just between me and her, I was told as if Pamela and I were co-conspirators, my conference room was the nicest of the three and she had put me there because I was her leading candidate. She was pulling for me, she really was.
“Wait,” I had to say again. “Who are you again? Don’t you work for the organization hiring me?”
Oh, heavens no, no. Had she forgotten to tell me? She was an executive recruiter that the organization had hired to pre-screen and submit candidates that met the right qualifications to the real decision-makers, Mister Thompson and the Executive Committee. Now, please, stop interrupting, she needed to tell me a few other things before checking on some other arrangements.
And then she took an actual breath, looking at me severely, as if waiting for me to acknowledge the difficulty of her task and apologize for my thoughtless attempts to make it even more difficult.
“...okay…” I said eventually.
Fine, fine. Now, once Mister Thompson has briefed the Executive Committee there would be a determination made, and there was a chance, a chance, mind you, that not all three candidates would be asked to meet with the Executive Committee. She would come and deliver the news either way, but in my case she was sure it would be fine, that there was no possible way I would fail to make the same impression on Mister Thompson that I had made on her, but a chance nonetheless. If things went the way she expected, I would be granted an audience with the Executive Committee. That conversation would likely not last more than thirty minutes, but every one of those thirty minutes would count in the final analysis, she could assure me.
“Do you have any questions?”
It took me a few seconds to realize she had stopped speaking and was now waiting for me to respond.
“Ummm, what happens after that?”
Excellent, excellent. Keep thinking like that and you’ll do fine. After that it was frankly anybody’s guess. The Executive Committee would go into a private session with Mister Thompson and a decision would be made. That decision could be a hiring decision, or it could be a decision to extend the process further. She wasn’t exactly sure.
The silence that followed was short-lived. Clearly uncomfortable with her own inability to affect the process any further, Pamela rose from her chair and quickly excused herself from the room, promising to return when it was time for me to meet with Mister Thompson and asking me to not leave the nicest of the three conference rooms until she came back for me.
Then the door clicked shut and I was left alone. For the first time, I started looking around the room. It was small and windowless, really just big enough for the mahogany table and the six chairs that surrounded it. In one forgotten corner was a green office plant, and on each wall was hung a tasteful piece of office art. I could have been anywhere, I realized, in any of a million little conference rooms in a hundred thousand office buildings, in ten thousand different cities across the globe and everything would look exactly as this one did. I noticed a framed photograph on the wall next to the door -- something black and white of people standing around in coats and ties -- and I had just decided to get up and take a closer look when the door opened and Pamela came rushing back in.
“Okay, Alan, it’s time, it’s time. Mister Thompson is ready for you.”
I picked up my padfolio and followed Pamela out of the room, round a corner, and down the side of what was a busy office complex. A sea of office cubes, a little like Don’s Ergonomic Pods, but more tasteful and understated, greeted me, and in each one, it seemed, a well-dressed young person was hard at work, only a handful looking up to see what kind of creature was being marched past. We traversed the length of the office floor and stopped just outside a corner office.
“Mister Thompson?” Pamela said, again proceeding without waiting for any kind of response. “Alan Larson is here to see you.”
She looked at me and cocked her head to the side, indicating that I should go in. Taking a deep breath, I did, and Pamela quietly shut the door behind me.
“Come in! Come in!” an elderly man from behind a wide desk said, rising slowly and somewhat painfully to his feet. He was dressed in a rumpled three-piece suit, the kind of thing likely last worn by Sydney Greenstreet in The Maltese Falcon, watch-chain and all. But unlike Mister Greenstreet, Mister Thompson was thin as a rail and had a full head of white hair, combed severely to one side and standing up a bit in the back.
“Hello, Mister Thompson?” I said, stepping forward and extending my hand.
“Yes, I am Richard Thompson,” he said, taking my hand limply in his. “And you are Alan Larson?”
“Yes.”
“Well, Alan Larson, please have a seat.”
We both sat, he behind his desk and me opposite. I could not help but notice that his desk was colossal, easily the biggest I had ever seen, seemingly more a block of concrete than a piece of furniture.
“So, Mister Larson...” Thompson began, looking down at me through a pair of glasses perched on the end of his nose. “Or may I call you Alan?”
“Alan is fine with me, Mister Thompson.”
Thompson smiled. “Thank you. And please, dispense with this ‘Mister Thompson’ nonsense. My name is Richard -- has been since I was born seventy-eight years ago. There is no reason for anyone to call me anything else.”
I nodded, laughing nervously. “Okay.”
“Now, Alan,” Thompson said quickly. “Tell me. How did you first come to hear about my position coming vacant.”
I answered as best I could. “Actually, Mister Thompson, it was my wife who found the advertisement for the position and who brought it to my attention. I did not know until just a few minutes ago that you were vacating the position. Your retirement, I assume?”
Thompson studied me closely in silence for a few uncomfortable seconds. Yes, he was retiring, he said suddenly, and with a hint of frustration in his voice. Retiring after thirty-seven years of service to this organization, thank me very much, thirty-seven years in which the organization had steadily grown in size and influence. How much research had I done on the organization before coming there today? Did I know when it was founded and what its essential purpose was? Did I know anything about its accomplishments and the people who had worked so hard to make them happen? Because it wasn’t just him, I was to be sure about that. He had had the pleasure of keeping his hand on the tiller for so many years, but without the volunteers, and without the staff beneath him, the organization would have had no rudder, and it would have been impossible to steer it in any direction at all. Did I understand that? Did I understand exactly what kind of situation I thought I was walking into?
He took a breath, but thankfully it wasn’t out of any desire for me to answer any of the questions he had just asked. Instead, it was just a breath, and in a moment he was lecturing me again.
He had had a lot of young men in his office of late, and a few young women, too, all thinking that they were ready to step into the shoes he was vacating, and without exception he had been singularly unimpressed with them all. Most hadn’t done any homework at all, waltzing in here evidently thinking that they could get by on their charm and the strength of their resumes. That wasn’t going to fly with him and it wasn’t going to fly with the Executive Committee. This organization was a sacred trust. Yes, that’s what he said. Call him old-fashioned, but the sacred did still exist in this increasingly secular world, and organizations like his were there to protect the sacred, to preserve it, and to bring it forth into all the years that were still to come. Did I understand that? Was that the kind of commitment that I was prepared to make?
He took another breath, and this time it looked like he did want some kind of response from me. But I wasn’t ready. Throughout his lecture, it was all I could do to maintain eye contact with him, keep the expression on my face placid, and nod sympathetically from time to time like I knew what he was talking about.
“Alan, do you understand me?”
“Yes,” I said, slowly releasing the grip I had taken on the arms of my chair. “Yes, I think I do. You feel very strongly about this organization, and you want to make sure that its essential mission is in good hands.”
It felt like I was just stringing words together. If Thompson would have asked me to repeat myself, I’m not sure I could have.
He looked at me craftily again -- more like Peter Lorre than Sydney Greenstreet, with the same kind of crazy in his eyes. In my mind I counted the seconds passing by, waiting for him to ask me another question or pull a gun out of his drawer and shoot me -- and not sure which would surprise me more.
“Here,” he said eventually, pushing himself with difficulty up and out of his chair. “Come here, Alan. I want to show you something.”
He led me over to a corner of his office where several photos were framed and hung on his wall. Thematically, they were similar to the one I had almost had a chance to study in the best of the three conference rooms. People, almost entirely men, mostly in coats and ties, standing around and posing stiffly for a cameraman in some bygone era. Most were black and white, but some of the newer ones were in color -- and by newer I mean from the 1980s, judging only by the hairstyles and the patterns on the sport coats.
One by one, Thompson began pointing them out to me and telling me his story behind each. The stories themselves were barely even anecdotes, just long lists of forgettable names and places. This was Harvey Withers, he said reverently, the first chairman of the Board that Thompson served under, standing with other members of the Board at their meeting at the Greenbrier in 1965. And this was Tom Donnor, who led their capital campaign in 1973, at the award banquet at their annual conference in Naples. And this was Jack Reardon, the first chair of their foundation, with his ceremonial gavel at its Board meeting in Niagara-on-the-Lake in 1982. And, of course, unmentioned but there nonetheless, Thompson himself was in every single one of these photos. First a young Thompson with black hair and a bow tie, then a middle-aged Thompson with a mustache and a paunchy belly, and finally a thinning and aging Thompson with a wrinkled face and eyeglasses.
But the oldest of all the Thompsons was the one standing right in front of me, his hand with its swollen joints and age spots trembling ever so slightly as he held it up to point out the people he had not forgotten in all those photographs. Through the long litany -- and long it certainly was, my feet growing sore in my polished wingtips as it dragged on and on -- through the long litany I did the best I could to remain attentive, to show deference and respect, but all the while I was wondering what the hell was going on and what kind of sick test this could possibly be. My attention kept going back to Thompson’s hand, his ancient hand with its manicured but still yellowed nails, and slowly I think I began to realize how sad this whole thing actually was. There was not going to be any test here, no gotcha questions designed to trap me into confessing the specific kind of monster I was. There was just a lonely old man in his corner office, preferring to remember the times he did the things that mattered than to engage the younger man they had sent to replace him.
Eventually, there was a knock at the door.
“Mister Thompson,” Pamela said, pushing the door open and her head into the room. “Mister Thompson, it’s almost time for your next appointment.”
We both turned towards the door. As we did so our eyes met.
“It was a pleasure meeting you, Alan,” Thompson said to me, almost as if the last twenty minutes hadn’t happened. He extended that same crippled hand to me as his parting gesture.
“Same here, Mister Thompson,” I said, gripping his hand as tightly as I dared. “I really appreciate your time. You’ve got a lot to be proud of here.”
Thompson nodded.
“Come on, Alan,” Pamela said, now pushing the door all the way open and stepping fully into the room. “Let’s get you back to your conference room.”
As we left the room I gave a backward glance and saw that Thompson had turned back to his photographs, now simply looking at them with both his hands hanging forgotten at his sides.
Pamela began walking me briskly back through the office.
“How did that go?” she asked. “Well, I hope?”
“Perfect,” I said, smiling, and wondering the name of the planet I had just found myself on.
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“Dragons” is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental. For more information, go here.
This post first appeared on Eric Lanke's blog, an association executive and author. You can follow him on Twitter @ericlanke or contact him at eric.lanke@gmail.com.
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“Hello, Alan?” she said to me. “It’s so nice to meet you,” she continued without waiting for me to confirm my identity, extending her hand for a powerful shake. “I’m Pamela Thornsby.”
Pamela ushered me gracefully into a small conference room just off the lobby. Once inside, she shut the door, motioned for me to take a seat and then sat opposite me. How was your flight yesterday? Did you have dinner in the city last night? Any trouble finding the office? Her polite questions came in quick succession, each in a tone meant to communicate that she really cared, but with barely a chance for me to even grunt in between.
“Now, Alan,” she said, turning deadly serious, “here’s how things are going to go today.”
She then proceeded to tell me that in a few minutes I would be sitting down with the retiring executive of the organization whose top job I had come to interview for.
“Wait,” I tried to interrupt, “you mean I’m going to be interviewed by the person whose job I’m trying to win?”
Yes, yes, Pamela said dismissively, clearly indicating with a wave or her hand that such things happened all the time in Beantown. His name was Thompson, Mister Richard Thompson, and he had been the organization’s executive for something like thirty-five years. He would be speaking to me for no more than twenty or thirty minutes, really just to get a sense of who I was, and then I would be returned to this small conference where I was to wait until Mister Thompson had had a chance to brief the Executive Committee on his discussion with you and the other two candidates.
“Wait,” I interrupted again. “There are two other candidates? Here? Today?”
Yes, yes, but not to worry, not to worry. Pamela was there to ensure that everything went smooth as silk and none of the candidates accidentally encountered each other. One was meeting with Mister Thompson as we spoke and the other would be arriving in about twenty minutes, when they would be sequestered in another conference very much like this one, but not quite as nice as this one. Just between me and her, I was told as if Pamela and I were co-conspirators, my conference room was the nicest of the three and she had put me there because I was her leading candidate. She was pulling for me, she really was.
“Wait,” I had to say again. “Who are you again? Don’t you work for the organization hiring me?”
Oh, heavens no, no. Had she forgotten to tell me? She was an executive recruiter that the organization had hired to pre-screen and submit candidates that met the right qualifications to the real decision-makers, Mister Thompson and the Executive Committee. Now, please, stop interrupting, she needed to tell me a few other things before checking on some other arrangements.
And then she took an actual breath, looking at me severely, as if waiting for me to acknowledge the difficulty of her task and apologize for my thoughtless attempts to make it even more difficult.
“...okay…” I said eventually.
Fine, fine. Now, once Mister Thompson has briefed the Executive Committee there would be a determination made, and there was a chance, a chance, mind you, that not all three candidates would be asked to meet with the Executive Committee. She would come and deliver the news either way, but in my case she was sure it would be fine, that there was no possible way I would fail to make the same impression on Mister Thompson that I had made on her, but a chance nonetheless. If things went the way she expected, I would be granted an audience with the Executive Committee. That conversation would likely not last more than thirty minutes, but every one of those thirty minutes would count in the final analysis, she could assure me.
“Do you have any questions?”
It took me a few seconds to realize she had stopped speaking and was now waiting for me to respond.
“Ummm, what happens after that?”
Excellent, excellent. Keep thinking like that and you’ll do fine. After that it was frankly anybody’s guess. The Executive Committee would go into a private session with Mister Thompson and a decision would be made. That decision could be a hiring decision, or it could be a decision to extend the process further. She wasn’t exactly sure.
The silence that followed was short-lived. Clearly uncomfortable with her own inability to affect the process any further, Pamela rose from her chair and quickly excused herself from the room, promising to return when it was time for me to meet with Mister Thompson and asking me to not leave the nicest of the three conference rooms until she came back for me.
Then the door clicked shut and I was left alone. For the first time, I started looking around the room. It was small and windowless, really just big enough for the mahogany table and the six chairs that surrounded it. In one forgotten corner was a green office plant, and on each wall was hung a tasteful piece of office art. I could have been anywhere, I realized, in any of a million little conference rooms in a hundred thousand office buildings, in ten thousand different cities across the globe and everything would look exactly as this one did. I noticed a framed photograph on the wall next to the door -- something black and white of people standing around in coats and ties -- and I had just decided to get up and take a closer look when the door opened and Pamela came rushing back in.
“Okay, Alan, it’s time, it’s time. Mister Thompson is ready for you.”
I picked up my padfolio and followed Pamela out of the room, round a corner, and down the side of what was a busy office complex. A sea of office cubes, a little like Don’s Ergonomic Pods, but more tasteful and understated, greeted me, and in each one, it seemed, a well-dressed young person was hard at work, only a handful looking up to see what kind of creature was being marched past. We traversed the length of the office floor and stopped just outside a corner office.
“Mister Thompson?” Pamela said, again proceeding without waiting for any kind of response. “Alan Larson is here to see you.”
She looked at me and cocked her head to the side, indicating that I should go in. Taking a deep breath, I did, and Pamela quietly shut the door behind me.
“Come in! Come in!” an elderly man from behind a wide desk said, rising slowly and somewhat painfully to his feet. He was dressed in a rumpled three-piece suit, the kind of thing likely last worn by Sydney Greenstreet in The Maltese Falcon, watch-chain and all. But unlike Mister Greenstreet, Mister Thompson was thin as a rail and had a full head of white hair, combed severely to one side and standing up a bit in the back.
“Hello, Mister Thompson?” I said, stepping forward and extending my hand.
“Yes, I am Richard Thompson,” he said, taking my hand limply in his. “And you are Alan Larson?”
“Yes.”
“Well, Alan Larson, please have a seat.”
We both sat, he behind his desk and me opposite. I could not help but notice that his desk was colossal, easily the biggest I had ever seen, seemingly more a block of concrete than a piece of furniture.
“So, Mister Larson...” Thompson began, looking down at me through a pair of glasses perched on the end of his nose. “Or may I call you Alan?”
“Alan is fine with me, Mister Thompson.”
Thompson smiled. “Thank you. And please, dispense with this ‘Mister Thompson’ nonsense. My name is Richard -- has been since I was born seventy-eight years ago. There is no reason for anyone to call me anything else.”
I nodded, laughing nervously. “Okay.”
“Now, Alan,” Thompson said quickly. “Tell me. How did you first come to hear about my position coming vacant.”
I answered as best I could. “Actually, Mister Thompson, it was my wife who found the advertisement for the position and who brought it to my attention. I did not know until just a few minutes ago that you were vacating the position. Your retirement, I assume?”
Thompson studied me closely in silence for a few uncomfortable seconds. Yes, he was retiring, he said suddenly, and with a hint of frustration in his voice. Retiring after thirty-seven years of service to this organization, thank me very much, thirty-seven years in which the organization had steadily grown in size and influence. How much research had I done on the organization before coming there today? Did I know when it was founded and what its essential purpose was? Did I know anything about its accomplishments and the people who had worked so hard to make them happen? Because it wasn’t just him, I was to be sure about that. He had had the pleasure of keeping his hand on the tiller for so many years, but without the volunteers, and without the staff beneath him, the organization would have had no rudder, and it would have been impossible to steer it in any direction at all. Did I understand that? Did I understand exactly what kind of situation I thought I was walking into?
He took a breath, but thankfully it wasn’t out of any desire for me to answer any of the questions he had just asked. Instead, it was just a breath, and in a moment he was lecturing me again.
He had had a lot of young men in his office of late, and a few young women, too, all thinking that they were ready to step into the shoes he was vacating, and without exception he had been singularly unimpressed with them all. Most hadn’t done any homework at all, waltzing in here evidently thinking that they could get by on their charm and the strength of their resumes. That wasn’t going to fly with him and it wasn’t going to fly with the Executive Committee. This organization was a sacred trust. Yes, that’s what he said. Call him old-fashioned, but the sacred did still exist in this increasingly secular world, and organizations like his were there to protect the sacred, to preserve it, and to bring it forth into all the years that were still to come. Did I understand that? Was that the kind of commitment that I was prepared to make?
He took another breath, and this time it looked like he did want some kind of response from me. But I wasn’t ready. Throughout his lecture, it was all I could do to maintain eye contact with him, keep the expression on my face placid, and nod sympathetically from time to time like I knew what he was talking about.
“Alan, do you understand me?”
“Yes,” I said, slowly releasing the grip I had taken on the arms of my chair. “Yes, I think I do. You feel very strongly about this organization, and you want to make sure that its essential mission is in good hands.”
It felt like I was just stringing words together. If Thompson would have asked me to repeat myself, I’m not sure I could have.
He looked at me craftily again -- more like Peter Lorre than Sydney Greenstreet, with the same kind of crazy in his eyes. In my mind I counted the seconds passing by, waiting for him to ask me another question or pull a gun out of his drawer and shoot me -- and not sure which would surprise me more.
“Here,” he said eventually, pushing himself with difficulty up and out of his chair. “Come here, Alan. I want to show you something.”
He led me over to a corner of his office where several photos were framed and hung on his wall. Thematically, they were similar to the one I had almost had a chance to study in the best of the three conference rooms. People, almost entirely men, mostly in coats and ties, standing around and posing stiffly for a cameraman in some bygone era. Most were black and white, but some of the newer ones were in color -- and by newer I mean from the 1980s, judging only by the hairstyles and the patterns on the sport coats.
One by one, Thompson began pointing them out to me and telling me his story behind each. The stories themselves were barely even anecdotes, just long lists of forgettable names and places. This was Harvey Withers, he said reverently, the first chairman of the Board that Thompson served under, standing with other members of the Board at their meeting at the Greenbrier in 1965. And this was Tom Donnor, who led their capital campaign in 1973, at the award banquet at their annual conference in Naples. And this was Jack Reardon, the first chair of their foundation, with his ceremonial gavel at its Board meeting in Niagara-on-the-Lake in 1982. And, of course, unmentioned but there nonetheless, Thompson himself was in every single one of these photos. First a young Thompson with black hair and a bow tie, then a middle-aged Thompson with a mustache and a paunchy belly, and finally a thinning and aging Thompson with a wrinkled face and eyeglasses.
But the oldest of all the Thompsons was the one standing right in front of me, his hand with its swollen joints and age spots trembling ever so slightly as he held it up to point out the people he had not forgotten in all those photographs. Through the long litany -- and long it certainly was, my feet growing sore in my polished wingtips as it dragged on and on -- through the long litany I did the best I could to remain attentive, to show deference and respect, but all the while I was wondering what the hell was going on and what kind of sick test this could possibly be. My attention kept going back to Thompson’s hand, his ancient hand with its manicured but still yellowed nails, and slowly I think I began to realize how sad this whole thing actually was. There was not going to be any test here, no gotcha questions designed to trap me into confessing the specific kind of monster I was. There was just a lonely old man in his corner office, preferring to remember the times he did the things that mattered than to engage the younger man they had sent to replace him.
Eventually, there was a knock at the door.
“Mister Thompson,” Pamela said, pushing the door open and her head into the room. “Mister Thompson, it’s almost time for your next appointment.”
We both turned towards the door. As we did so our eyes met.
“It was a pleasure meeting you, Alan,” Thompson said to me, almost as if the last twenty minutes hadn’t happened. He extended that same crippled hand to me as his parting gesture.
“Same here, Mister Thompson,” I said, gripping his hand as tightly as I dared. “I really appreciate your time. You’ve got a lot to be proud of here.”
Thompson nodded.
“Come on, Alan,” Pamela said, now pushing the door all the way open and stepping fully into the room. “Let’s get you back to your conference room.”
As we left the room I gave a backward glance and saw that Thompson had turned back to his photographs, now simply looking at them with both his hands hanging forgotten at his sides.
Pamela began walking me briskly back through the office.
“How did that go?” she asked. “Well, I hope?”
“Perfect,” I said, smiling, and wondering the name of the planet I had just found myself on.
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Monday, May 10, 2021
A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
This is the first paragraph from the author’s introduction:
I first published the novella A Clockwork Orange in 1962, which ought to be far enough in the past for it to be erased from the world’s literary memory. It refuses to be erased, however, and for this the film version of the book made by Stanley Kubrick may be held chiefly responsible. I should myself be glad to disown it for various reasons, but this is not permitted. I receive mail from students who try to write theses about it, or requests from Japanese dramaturges to turn it into a sort of Noh play. It seems likely to survive, while other works of mine that I value more bite the dust. This is not an unusual experience for an artist. Rachmaninoff used to groan because he was known mainly for a Prelude in C Sharp Minor which he wrote as a boy, while the works of his maturity never got into the programmes. Kids cut their pianistic teeth on a Minuet in G which Beethoven composed only so that he could detest it. I have to go on living with A Clockwork Orange, and this means I have a sort of authorial duty to it. I have a very special duty to it in the United States, and I had better now explain what this duty is.
So, first of all, wow. A Clockwork Orange is evidently Burgess’s Frankenstein monster -- a creation he despises, but which continually begs for recognition from its creator. I didn’t know that. But an even bigger wow is the duty that Burgess begins to describe in the following paragraphs, and the only reason, it seems, that he wrote this introduction in the first place.
In case you didn’t know, A Clockwork Orange, as written by Burgess, is a short novel of 21 chapters. That’s the way it was first published in Britain. But when it came to the United States, it was published there with only 20 chapters, and that is also the version on which Kubrick’s film was based.
What’s the difference, you may ask? Well, according to Burgess, everything. The 21st chapter gives the novel an entirely different ending. It is the one in which his young protagonist grows up and seeks a new way of life.
There is no hint of this change of intention in the twentieth chapter. The boy is conditioned, then de-conditioned, and he foresees with glee a resumption of the operation of free and violent will. ‘I was cured all right,’ he says, and so the American book ends. So the film ends too. The twenty-first chapter gives the novel the quality of genuine fiction, an art founded on the principle that human beings change. There is, in fact, not much point in writing a novel unless you can show the possibility of moral transformation, or an increase in wisdom, operating in your chief character or characters. Even trashy bestsellers show people changing. When a fictional work fails to show change, when it merely indicates that human character is set, stony, unregenerable, then you are out of the field of the novel and into that of the fable or the allegory. The American or Kubrickian Orange is a fable; the British or world one is a novel.
Double wow. This is, by far, the most interesting thing about A Clockwork Orange. And one has to wonder that if the American publisher hadn’t removed the 21st chapter whether Kubrick would’ve made his film, or whether it would be the monster still plaguing its Dr. Frankenstein.
Because the novel, short as it is, is kind of a slog. Burgess’s gimmick of an entirely slang-based narrator -- Yarbles! Bolshy great yarblockos to thee and thine! -- is more impenetrable than it is interesting. It’s almost a shame, because at its core, A Clockwork Orange is a philosophical novel, but one that takes almost half its length to even broach its philosophical point.
‘It may not be nice to be good, little 6655321. It may be horrible to be good. And when I say that to you I realize how self-contradictory that sounds. I know I shall have many sleepless nights about this. What does God want? Does God want goodness or the choice of goodness? Is a man who chooses the bad perhaps in some way better than a man who has the good imposed upon him? Deep and hard questions, little 6655321. But all I want to say to you now is this: if at any time in the future you look back to these times and remember me, the lowest and humblest of all God’s servitors, do not, I pray, think evil of me in your heart, thinking me in any way involved in what is now about to happen to you. And now, talking of praying, I realize sadly that there will be little point in praying for you. You are passing now to a region where you will be beyond the reach of the power of prayer. A terrible terrible thing to consider. And yet, in a sense, in choosing to be deprived of the ability to make an ethical choice, you have in a sense really chosen the good. So I shall like to think. So, God help us all, 6655321, I shall like to think.’
This is said to our young protagonist Alex, a violent wretch, by the man about to reprogram him, to reprogram him in such a way that even the thought of committing violence will make Alex retch and feel so sick to his stomach that he will do anything -- even not commit the violence -- in order to keep the brainwashed sickness at bay.
And this is the philosophical point that the novel would have us ponder. In such a schema, where does morality lie? Is the man who does good, but who would do evil if he could, a moral man? Or is only the man who chooses good the moral one?
Much of the movie stays true to the trappings of the plot of the novel in driving this question home. Alex is a connoisseur of classical music. As part of the reprogramming, classical music is played under the violent films and images that are conditioning him so that the music, too, brings on the sickness. Once out and reprogrammed, Alex is set upon by his former violent friends, who abuse and beat him for past grievances, and Alex is unable to fight back. Weak and injured, he seeks shelter at a stranger’s home, one he doesn’t realize he had previously visited in disguise prior to the reprogramming, a place where he had already committed violent crimes against the home’s occupants. The homeowner, kind to Alex at first, eventually discovers who he is and what has happened to him, and so locks him in a room where he purposely blasts classical music at him in order to make him sick and suicidal. The homeowner then uses the spectacle of Alex’s suicide attempt to discredit the government program that reprogrammed him, and the reprogramming is undone, returning Alex to his original violent state and tendencies.
As Burgess explains, this is where the film and the American version of the novel ends. And it is seemingly at this point that American audiences are required to draw their conclusions about the moral of the tale.
In this reading, it seems to support the concept that freedom of choice is the superior moral option, even if that choice is used to do violence. In comparison, it seems, compelled acts of goodness are absent the moral foundation of will. To be moral, once must choose.
But, as Burgess laments, there are cracks in this interpretation. He thinks those cracks are because the story is not complete, that with the novel ending with the twentieth chapter, Alex has only chosen to do violence and been compelled to do good -- leaving us with a twisted morality tale that appeals only in a Kubrickian sense of spectacle and excess. He believes the twenty-first chapter is needed to rescue the reader from this flawed interpretation, for it is there that Alex chooses to do good. Morality is not just choice, but choosing to do good.
But Burgess is going to find me disagreeing with even that, because Alex has never chosen to do violence, neither before nor after his reprogramming. The philosophical reality that seems curiously absent from the work is the fact that Alex, like all of us, is programmed either way. First by his genes and upbringing, and second by the “vitamins” and “real horrorshow films.” If choice is required for morality to occur, then I fear the deeper subtext of A Clockwork Orange is that we live in an amoral universe.
Yes yes yes, there it was. Youth must go, ah yes. But youth is only being in a way like it might be an animal. No, it is not just like being an animal so much as being like one of these malenky toys you viddy being sold in the streets, like little chellovecks made of tin and with a spring inside and then a winding handle on the outside and you wind it up grrr grrr grrr and off it itties, like walking, O my brothers. But it itties in a straight line and bangs straight into things bang bang and it cannot help what it is doing. Being young is like being like one of these malenky machines.
Right you are, Alex. But unfortunately, it is not just the young who act like malenky wind-up toys. Even adults, ready to choose something different, only make those choices when the spring inside them winds down.
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This post first appeared on Eric Lanke's blog, an association executive and author. You can follow him on Twitter @ericlanke or contact him at eric.lanke@gmail.com.
I first published the novella A Clockwork Orange in 1962, which ought to be far enough in the past for it to be erased from the world’s literary memory. It refuses to be erased, however, and for this the film version of the book made by Stanley Kubrick may be held chiefly responsible. I should myself be glad to disown it for various reasons, but this is not permitted. I receive mail from students who try to write theses about it, or requests from Japanese dramaturges to turn it into a sort of Noh play. It seems likely to survive, while other works of mine that I value more bite the dust. This is not an unusual experience for an artist. Rachmaninoff used to groan because he was known mainly for a Prelude in C Sharp Minor which he wrote as a boy, while the works of his maturity never got into the programmes. Kids cut their pianistic teeth on a Minuet in G which Beethoven composed only so that he could detest it. I have to go on living with A Clockwork Orange, and this means I have a sort of authorial duty to it. I have a very special duty to it in the United States, and I had better now explain what this duty is.
So, first of all, wow. A Clockwork Orange is evidently Burgess’s Frankenstein monster -- a creation he despises, but which continually begs for recognition from its creator. I didn’t know that. But an even bigger wow is the duty that Burgess begins to describe in the following paragraphs, and the only reason, it seems, that he wrote this introduction in the first place.
In case you didn’t know, A Clockwork Orange, as written by Burgess, is a short novel of 21 chapters. That’s the way it was first published in Britain. But when it came to the United States, it was published there with only 20 chapters, and that is also the version on which Kubrick’s film was based.
What’s the difference, you may ask? Well, according to Burgess, everything. The 21st chapter gives the novel an entirely different ending. It is the one in which his young protagonist grows up and seeks a new way of life.
There is no hint of this change of intention in the twentieth chapter. The boy is conditioned, then de-conditioned, and he foresees with glee a resumption of the operation of free and violent will. ‘I was cured all right,’ he says, and so the American book ends. So the film ends too. The twenty-first chapter gives the novel the quality of genuine fiction, an art founded on the principle that human beings change. There is, in fact, not much point in writing a novel unless you can show the possibility of moral transformation, or an increase in wisdom, operating in your chief character or characters. Even trashy bestsellers show people changing. When a fictional work fails to show change, when it merely indicates that human character is set, stony, unregenerable, then you are out of the field of the novel and into that of the fable or the allegory. The American or Kubrickian Orange is a fable; the British or world one is a novel.
Double wow. This is, by far, the most interesting thing about A Clockwork Orange. And one has to wonder that if the American publisher hadn’t removed the 21st chapter whether Kubrick would’ve made his film, or whether it would be the monster still plaguing its Dr. Frankenstein.
Because the novel, short as it is, is kind of a slog. Burgess’s gimmick of an entirely slang-based narrator -- Yarbles! Bolshy great yarblockos to thee and thine! -- is more impenetrable than it is interesting. It’s almost a shame, because at its core, A Clockwork Orange is a philosophical novel, but one that takes almost half its length to even broach its philosophical point.
‘It may not be nice to be good, little 6655321. It may be horrible to be good. And when I say that to you I realize how self-contradictory that sounds. I know I shall have many sleepless nights about this. What does God want? Does God want goodness or the choice of goodness? Is a man who chooses the bad perhaps in some way better than a man who has the good imposed upon him? Deep and hard questions, little 6655321. But all I want to say to you now is this: if at any time in the future you look back to these times and remember me, the lowest and humblest of all God’s servitors, do not, I pray, think evil of me in your heart, thinking me in any way involved in what is now about to happen to you. And now, talking of praying, I realize sadly that there will be little point in praying for you. You are passing now to a region where you will be beyond the reach of the power of prayer. A terrible terrible thing to consider. And yet, in a sense, in choosing to be deprived of the ability to make an ethical choice, you have in a sense really chosen the good. So I shall like to think. So, God help us all, 6655321, I shall like to think.’
This is said to our young protagonist Alex, a violent wretch, by the man about to reprogram him, to reprogram him in such a way that even the thought of committing violence will make Alex retch and feel so sick to his stomach that he will do anything -- even not commit the violence -- in order to keep the brainwashed sickness at bay.
And this is the philosophical point that the novel would have us ponder. In such a schema, where does morality lie? Is the man who does good, but who would do evil if he could, a moral man? Or is only the man who chooses good the moral one?
Much of the movie stays true to the trappings of the plot of the novel in driving this question home. Alex is a connoisseur of classical music. As part of the reprogramming, classical music is played under the violent films and images that are conditioning him so that the music, too, brings on the sickness. Once out and reprogrammed, Alex is set upon by his former violent friends, who abuse and beat him for past grievances, and Alex is unable to fight back. Weak and injured, he seeks shelter at a stranger’s home, one he doesn’t realize he had previously visited in disguise prior to the reprogramming, a place where he had already committed violent crimes against the home’s occupants. The homeowner, kind to Alex at first, eventually discovers who he is and what has happened to him, and so locks him in a room where he purposely blasts classical music at him in order to make him sick and suicidal. The homeowner then uses the spectacle of Alex’s suicide attempt to discredit the government program that reprogrammed him, and the reprogramming is undone, returning Alex to his original violent state and tendencies.
As Burgess explains, this is where the film and the American version of the novel ends. And it is seemingly at this point that American audiences are required to draw their conclusions about the moral of the tale.
In this reading, it seems to support the concept that freedom of choice is the superior moral option, even if that choice is used to do violence. In comparison, it seems, compelled acts of goodness are absent the moral foundation of will. To be moral, once must choose.
But, as Burgess laments, there are cracks in this interpretation. He thinks those cracks are because the story is not complete, that with the novel ending with the twentieth chapter, Alex has only chosen to do violence and been compelled to do good -- leaving us with a twisted morality tale that appeals only in a Kubrickian sense of spectacle and excess. He believes the twenty-first chapter is needed to rescue the reader from this flawed interpretation, for it is there that Alex chooses to do good. Morality is not just choice, but choosing to do good.
But Burgess is going to find me disagreeing with even that, because Alex has never chosen to do violence, neither before nor after his reprogramming. The philosophical reality that seems curiously absent from the work is the fact that Alex, like all of us, is programmed either way. First by his genes and upbringing, and second by the “vitamins” and “real horrorshow films.” If choice is required for morality to occur, then I fear the deeper subtext of A Clockwork Orange is that we live in an amoral universe.
Yes yes yes, there it was. Youth must go, ah yes. But youth is only being in a way like it might be an animal. No, it is not just like being an animal so much as being like one of these malenky toys you viddy being sold in the streets, like little chellovecks made of tin and with a spring inside and then a winding handle on the outside and you wind it up grrr grrr grrr and off it itties, like walking, O my brothers. But it itties in a straight line and bangs straight into things bang bang and it cannot help what it is doing. Being young is like being like one of these malenky machines.
Right you are, Alex. But unfortunately, it is not just the young who act like malenky wind-up toys. Even adults, ready to choose something different, only make those choices when the spring inside them winds down.
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This post first appeared on Eric Lanke's blog, an association executive and author. You can follow him on Twitter @ericlanke or contact him at eric.lanke@gmail.com.
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Monday, May 3, 2021
Dragons - Chapter 61 (DRAFT)
I couldn’t stay in that hotel room. Not after such a phone call. What had once felt almost like a sanctuary now felt decidedly like a prison cell. I knew the walls weren’t actually closing in on me, but I just couldn’t look at them anymore. Their stucco surface seemed to mock me, their last coat of paint not entirely covering the last around the thermostat and that stupid black and white print of Faneuil Hall -- the same one, I knew, repeated hundreds of times, in the same spot on the same wall in every room in the building -- staring at me, showing me nothing but my own eyes reflected in the dark spots between the windows. I hated it. I had to get out.
Moments later I found myself out on the street with little recollection of leaving either my room or my hotel. My mind was filled with questions and worries about the conversation I had just had with Bethany. On the surface were the simple terrors: Should I have told her about the interview? What would happen if she told people at the office? What would Mary do to me if she found out I was looking for a new job? But below that flow were deeper and darker currents: Why had Bethany texted me in the first place? Why was she so upset that I hadn’t told her about the interview? What exactly did that night in Miami Beach mean to her?
It was a cool night, but plenty of people were out and about. My hotel, it seemed, was in a trendy part of Boston, with upscale boutiques and restaurants lining the way. Something about it seemed familiar to me, but my mind was too distracted to make any real connection with it. I could feel my heart sinking and a cold sweat breaking out on my back as I continued to imagine implication after implication.
What, exactly, did Bethany think was going on between us? Sure, we had shared something close, perhaps even intimate, on the beach in Miami, but I distinctly remember our connection being interrupted by two phone calls -- the first from my wife and the second from Caroline Abernathy. I didn’t leave the beach with any lasting impression about Bethany. I only remember running frantically in an attempt to rescue poor Caroline.
My mind had run quickly over the memory of that first phone call from Jenny, but now it skidded to a stop and began to backtrack towards it. Tonight, Bethany had gone distinctly cold when Jenny’s name had come up. Why was that? She was the one reaching out to me behind the back of her spouse. Was I supposed to disclaim all knowledge of my own? We had talked about our marriages dozens, if not hundreds of times -- especially in that concrete bunker in the basement of our office building. Why was tonight any different? What was going on in Bethany’s head? In her heart?
Distracted by these thoughts I accidentally bumped into a passerby. I offered a quick apology, but the person was already gone. Nevertheless the altercation had spun me partially around and I found myself staring at and thinking about something fresh: a street sign, showing that I had arrived at the corner of Newberry and Clarendon Streets.
That gave me pause. Newberry Street. I knew this place. I had been here at least once before. When was it? Had I been to Boston before on business? I must have, I’d been just about everywhere that had a convention center, but I couldn’t put a specific memory on it.
I turned and began walking down Newberry Street itself and then it came to me. I had been here before but not on business. Jenny and I had come here once. We had spent a long weekend here, visiting the Museum of Fine Arts, walking the Freedom Trail, and shopping and eating here, on this very street, at that very cafe right over there. It seemed an absolute certainty to me, and yet I still doubted it. How could I not remember that? In all our preparations for this interview, never once had our previous trip to Boston even come up in our conversation. It was true, wasn’t it? I mean, I know it was in those forgotten years after our wedding and before Jacob’s birth, but how could it have slipped both of our minds like this?
I walked up to the cafe that I thought I remembered. There was a chalkboard positioned next to a simple rope line, on the other side of which were small tables with people enjoying coffees and desserts of one kind or another. The chalkboard told me their specials but before I could read them the hostess addressed me.
“Table for one, sir?”
“Huh?” I said, looking up at her, surprised to see that she was impossibly young, surely no older than fifteen or sixteen.
“Do you want a table?”
“Oh, no, thank you,” I said, and then forced myself to stumble away.
It was the cafe we had eaten at, wasn’t it? Suddenly I wasn’t so sure. Yes, of course, it was, I told myself. It had to be. Because there’s the clothing store I couldn’t drag Jenny out of, and there, farther down the street, there’s the used book store that Jenny couldn’t drag me out of. It was all so familiar and yet so foreign at the same time, as if I was seeing someone else’s memories, or maybe my own memories through someone else’s eyes.
I took my phone out of my pocket and dialed my home number.
“Hello?”
“Jenny, it’s me.”
“Hi! How are you? Is everything all right?”
“Yes. I mean, no. No, I mean, yes. Well, it’s weird.”
“Alan, what’s going on? Where are you?”
“I’m on Newberry Street,” I said, giving it special emphasis. “I’m standing across from the cafe where we had coffee and carrot cake in the dim years before Jacob was born. Do you remember that? Do you remember that at all?”
“Oh my God, Alan! What are you doing there?”
“Do you remember?!”
“Of course I remember. How did you get there?”
“It’s just a few blocks from my hotel.”
“I didn’t know that.”
“No, neither did I. How is that possible?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, in all the time we spent getting me ready for this trip, for this interview tomorrow, booking the flight, booking the hotel, writing the sample interview questions and practicing them -- the whole time we knew I was going to Boston, to the city we had visited and spent some time as newlyweds. How is it possible that neither one of us thought to mention that?”
“Alan, I’m not sure I’m following you.”
“Hey, Boston,” I said, not really talking to her anymore and just kind of talking out loud. “Isn’t that the place we went that one time? You know, that time we saw that Manet exhibit at the art museum and that time we ridiculed of all the idiots in the stupid swan boats and that time we made love in the jacuzzi tub in our hotel suite? You know -- Boston?”
There was no response from the other end of the line, and in that silence I noticed an elderly couple walking past me briskly and giving me some kind of frightened look.
“I’m ranting,” I said. “Aren’t I?”
“Yes, you are,” Jenny said. “Why don’t you try to calm yourself down? You shouldn’t be getting this upset.”
“But why, Jenny? Why did neither one of us remember? We had fun here.”
“I don’t know, Alan. Life is just so different now. Most days just getting showered and dressed seems like a big accomplishment. We’re busy. We forgot.”
She was right. She usually was. But still, it bothered me -- and I could tell that it bothered me in a way that it didn’t bother her. Probably because I was there and I could see it. I could see the cafe and the clothing store and the used book store, and I could see the people we used to be. There they were. Drinking their coffee and eating their carrot cake and doing their shopping. At one time they had been us -- Jenny and me -- and now we were something else.
“Oh, hey, Alan, one of your staff people called here a few minutes ago.”
That brought me back to myself in a hurry. “What? Who?”
“Bethany Bishop.”
“You spoke to her?”
“Sure. Why wouldn’t I?”
My mind was racing. “When was this? When did you speak to her?”
“A few minutes ago.”
Yes, a few minutes ago, but how many? Thirty minutes ago? Did thirty count as a few? Because if it was thirty minutes ago then Bethany had called before she started texting me and she was probably just looking for me. But if it was ten minutes ago, and ten could probably more appropriately be called a few, then Bethany had called after she had already spoken to me, and why would she do that? Why would she call my wife? What possible reason could she have for doing that?
“How many minutes ago?”
“Just a few before you called. I thought it was kind of strange.”
So did I. “What did she want?”
“She said you had something she needed. She didn’t seem to know that you were out of town.”
“Jenny,” I said as calmly as I could. “Everybody at work thinks that I’m helping your mother move. Remember? That’s the excuse I gave Mary.”
“Oh my god, Alan. I forgot.”
She forgot. “What did you tell her? Did you tell her I was out of town?”
“No,” Jenny said quickly, almost too quickly. And then she said it again, as if to reassure herself. And then a third time, this time sounding as confident as anything else in her life. “I did not say you were out of town. I just said you were out.”
“Jenny, are you sure?”
“Yes, Alan, I’m sure! I said you were out and that I would take a message.”
“Did she leave one?”
“No. I’m mean, not really. Just that you should call her when you get a chance. And that she needs something you have. She seemed oddly insistent about that. That she needed something from you.”
I stood silently on the street corner, looking at a couple sitting at our cafe, wishing all over again that Jenny and I were them and not the people we were.
“Do you know what she’s talking about? Maybe you should call her?”
“What?”
“Maybe you should call her. If she doesn’t know you’re out of town it’ll look odd if you don’t call her back. Do you know what she’s talking about? What she needs from you?”
“I think so,” I said honestly, and then shifted into a convenient lie. “There’s a project we’re working on together. It’s probably something to do with that. I’ll call her when I get back to the hotel and pretend I’m home, that I was just out getting some groceries or something.”
“OK, that sounds good. I’m sorry, honey, if I screwed something up.”
“It’s okay,” I said, silently noting the irony of her apologizing to me. “It’s nothing, Don’t worry about it.”
“Okay. I love you, Alan.”
“I love you, too. I’ll call tomorrow after the interview.”
“Okay. Knock ‘em dead.”
“I will.”
The line clicked off and I stuffed the phone back in my pocket. Call Bethany? I thought to myself. Not on your life. From that moment forward I planned to stay as far away from her as I possibly could.
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“Dragons” is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental. For more information, go here.
This post first appeared on Eric Lanke's blog, an association executive and author. You can follow him on Twitter @ericlanke or contact him at eric.lanke@gmail.com.
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Moments later I found myself out on the street with little recollection of leaving either my room or my hotel. My mind was filled with questions and worries about the conversation I had just had with Bethany. On the surface were the simple terrors: Should I have told her about the interview? What would happen if she told people at the office? What would Mary do to me if she found out I was looking for a new job? But below that flow were deeper and darker currents: Why had Bethany texted me in the first place? Why was she so upset that I hadn’t told her about the interview? What exactly did that night in Miami Beach mean to her?
It was a cool night, but plenty of people were out and about. My hotel, it seemed, was in a trendy part of Boston, with upscale boutiques and restaurants lining the way. Something about it seemed familiar to me, but my mind was too distracted to make any real connection with it. I could feel my heart sinking and a cold sweat breaking out on my back as I continued to imagine implication after implication.
What, exactly, did Bethany think was going on between us? Sure, we had shared something close, perhaps even intimate, on the beach in Miami, but I distinctly remember our connection being interrupted by two phone calls -- the first from my wife and the second from Caroline Abernathy. I didn’t leave the beach with any lasting impression about Bethany. I only remember running frantically in an attempt to rescue poor Caroline.
My mind had run quickly over the memory of that first phone call from Jenny, but now it skidded to a stop and began to backtrack towards it. Tonight, Bethany had gone distinctly cold when Jenny’s name had come up. Why was that? She was the one reaching out to me behind the back of her spouse. Was I supposed to disclaim all knowledge of my own? We had talked about our marriages dozens, if not hundreds of times -- especially in that concrete bunker in the basement of our office building. Why was tonight any different? What was going on in Bethany’s head? In her heart?
Distracted by these thoughts I accidentally bumped into a passerby. I offered a quick apology, but the person was already gone. Nevertheless the altercation had spun me partially around and I found myself staring at and thinking about something fresh: a street sign, showing that I had arrived at the corner of Newberry and Clarendon Streets.
That gave me pause. Newberry Street. I knew this place. I had been here at least once before. When was it? Had I been to Boston before on business? I must have, I’d been just about everywhere that had a convention center, but I couldn’t put a specific memory on it.
I turned and began walking down Newberry Street itself and then it came to me. I had been here before but not on business. Jenny and I had come here once. We had spent a long weekend here, visiting the Museum of Fine Arts, walking the Freedom Trail, and shopping and eating here, on this very street, at that very cafe right over there. It seemed an absolute certainty to me, and yet I still doubted it. How could I not remember that? In all our preparations for this interview, never once had our previous trip to Boston even come up in our conversation. It was true, wasn’t it? I mean, I know it was in those forgotten years after our wedding and before Jacob’s birth, but how could it have slipped both of our minds like this?
I walked up to the cafe that I thought I remembered. There was a chalkboard positioned next to a simple rope line, on the other side of which were small tables with people enjoying coffees and desserts of one kind or another. The chalkboard told me their specials but before I could read them the hostess addressed me.
“Table for one, sir?”
“Huh?” I said, looking up at her, surprised to see that she was impossibly young, surely no older than fifteen or sixteen.
“Do you want a table?”
“Oh, no, thank you,” I said, and then forced myself to stumble away.
It was the cafe we had eaten at, wasn’t it? Suddenly I wasn’t so sure. Yes, of course, it was, I told myself. It had to be. Because there’s the clothing store I couldn’t drag Jenny out of, and there, farther down the street, there’s the used book store that Jenny couldn’t drag me out of. It was all so familiar and yet so foreign at the same time, as if I was seeing someone else’s memories, or maybe my own memories through someone else’s eyes.
I took my phone out of my pocket and dialed my home number.
“Hello?”
“Jenny, it’s me.”
“Hi! How are you? Is everything all right?”
“Yes. I mean, no. No, I mean, yes. Well, it’s weird.”
“Alan, what’s going on? Where are you?”
“I’m on Newberry Street,” I said, giving it special emphasis. “I’m standing across from the cafe where we had coffee and carrot cake in the dim years before Jacob was born. Do you remember that? Do you remember that at all?”
“Oh my God, Alan! What are you doing there?”
“Do you remember?!”
“Of course I remember. How did you get there?”
“It’s just a few blocks from my hotel.”
“I didn’t know that.”
“No, neither did I. How is that possible?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, in all the time we spent getting me ready for this trip, for this interview tomorrow, booking the flight, booking the hotel, writing the sample interview questions and practicing them -- the whole time we knew I was going to Boston, to the city we had visited and spent some time as newlyweds. How is it possible that neither one of us thought to mention that?”
“Alan, I’m not sure I’m following you.”
“Hey, Boston,” I said, not really talking to her anymore and just kind of talking out loud. “Isn’t that the place we went that one time? You know, that time we saw that Manet exhibit at the art museum and that time we ridiculed of all the idiots in the stupid swan boats and that time we made love in the jacuzzi tub in our hotel suite? You know -- Boston?”
There was no response from the other end of the line, and in that silence I noticed an elderly couple walking past me briskly and giving me some kind of frightened look.
“I’m ranting,” I said. “Aren’t I?”
“Yes, you are,” Jenny said. “Why don’t you try to calm yourself down? You shouldn’t be getting this upset.”
“But why, Jenny? Why did neither one of us remember? We had fun here.”
“I don’t know, Alan. Life is just so different now. Most days just getting showered and dressed seems like a big accomplishment. We’re busy. We forgot.”
She was right. She usually was. But still, it bothered me -- and I could tell that it bothered me in a way that it didn’t bother her. Probably because I was there and I could see it. I could see the cafe and the clothing store and the used book store, and I could see the people we used to be. There they were. Drinking their coffee and eating their carrot cake and doing their shopping. At one time they had been us -- Jenny and me -- and now we were something else.
“Oh, hey, Alan, one of your staff people called here a few minutes ago.”
That brought me back to myself in a hurry. “What? Who?”
“Bethany Bishop.”
“You spoke to her?”
“Sure. Why wouldn’t I?”
My mind was racing. “When was this? When did you speak to her?”
“A few minutes ago.”
Yes, a few minutes ago, but how many? Thirty minutes ago? Did thirty count as a few? Because if it was thirty minutes ago then Bethany had called before she started texting me and she was probably just looking for me. But if it was ten minutes ago, and ten could probably more appropriately be called a few, then Bethany had called after she had already spoken to me, and why would she do that? Why would she call my wife? What possible reason could she have for doing that?
“How many minutes ago?”
“Just a few before you called. I thought it was kind of strange.”
So did I. “What did she want?”
“She said you had something she needed. She didn’t seem to know that you were out of town.”
“Jenny,” I said as calmly as I could. “Everybody at work thinks that I’m helping your mother move. Remember? That’s the excuse I gave Mary.”
“Oh my god, Alan. I forgot.”
She forgot. “What did you tell her? Did you tell her I was out of town?”
“No,” Jenny said quickly, almost too quickly. And then she said it again, as if to reassure herself. And then a third time, this time sounding as confident as anything else in her life. “I did not say you were out of town. I just said you were out.”
“Jenny, are you sure?”
“Yes, Alan, I’m sure! I said you were out and that I would take a message.”
“Did she leave one?”
“No. I’m mean, not really. Just that you should call her when you get a chance. And that she needs something you have. She seemed oddly insistent about that. That she needed something from you.”
I stood silently on the street corner, looking at a couple sitting at our cafe, wishing all over again that Jenny and I were them and not the people we were.
“Do you know what she’s talking about? Maybe you should call her?”
“What?”
“Maybe you should call her. If she doesn’t know you’re out of town it’ll look odd if you don’t call her back. Do you know what she’s talking about? What she needs from you?”
“I think so,” I said honestly, and then shifted into a convenient lie. “There’s a project we’re working on together. It’s probably something to do with that. I’ll call her when I get back to the hotel and pretend I’m home, that I was just out getting some groceries or something.”
“OK, that sounds good. I’m sorry, honey, if I screwed something up.”
“It’s okay,” I said, silently noting the irony of her apologizing to me. “It’s nothing, Don’t worry about it.”
“Okay. I love you, Alan.”
“I love you, too. I’ll call tomorrow after the interview.”
“Okay. Knock ‘em dead.”
“I will.”
The line clicked off and I stuffed the phone back in my pocket. Call Bethany? I thought to myself. Not on your life. From that moment forward I planned to stay as far away from her as I possibly could.
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“Dragons” is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental. For more information, go here.
This post first appeared on Eric Lanke's blog, an association executive and author. You can follow him on Twitter @ericlanke or contact him at eric.lanke@gmail.com.
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